Sunday, January 18, 2009
Someone, listen to my silent screams.
Had trng just now. Suddenly had a thought, " why am I trng? I am nowhere better than anyone in the team. My presence is only to entertain. I know, the team needs me, to make them laugh." I am so disappointed with myself. I am already considered as a senior player. Played netball for 5 years. Any achievements? None. I am a total loser, failure. I can never be better than anyone. I am fat and slow. I am just a burden to the team. My existence in the team is a disgrace to everyone. I can only do stupid things to make pple laugh. Haha. Well, at least I can make pple laugh. Applause for that. Haha. Netball... Why am I trng? The team does not need me. They can do better without me. They can just easily find replacement for me. Someone who can make them laugh and play well at the same time. I am just a burden. In Henderson, in Extremes, I am just one extra one. I hate myself. I want to hide myself somewhere, somewhere pple cannot find me. Slowly, they will forget that I actually exist. I will be erased off their memory. I will miss them but they will forget me. This is the ending where everyone will be happy except for me.
This is a empty post.
Bye.
Someone, listen to my silent screams.
Had trng just now. Suddenly had a thought, " why am I trng? I am nowhere better than anyone in the team. My presence is only to entertain. I know, the team needs me, to make them laugh." I am so disappointed with myself. I am already considered as a senior player. Played netball for 5 years. Any achievements? None. I am a total loser, failure. I can never be better than anyone. I am fat and slow. I am just a burden to the team. My existence in the team is a disgrace to everyone. I can only do stupid things to make pple laugh. Haha. Well, at least I can make pple laugh. Applause for that. Haha. Netball... Why am I trng? The team does not need me. They can do better without me. They can just easily find replacement for me. Someone who can make them laugh and play well at the same time. I am just a burden. In Henderson, in Extremes, I am just one extra one. I hate myself. I want to hide myself somewhere, somewhere pple cannot find me. Slowly, they will forget that I actually exist. I will be erased off their memory. I will miss them but they will forget me. This is the ending where everyone will be happy except for me.
This is a empty post.
Bye.
