Saturday, January 31, 2009
I have been struggling very hard before making this decision.
I have decided to stop playing netball. This is really a tough decision. I love netball. I have been playing it for 5 years, but you guys have the eyes to see that I am not a good player. Never was and never will. JL is right, I will never be a good player. My size is already a big disadvantage. I will not achieve anything if I continue. JL asked me to concentrate on Umpiring, but it is not what I want. I want to play the game. I want to be part of the team when we win. I want to cry with the team when lose. Honestly,I never had the sense of belonging to the team, whether in Extremes or even Henderson. I was never the reason why they won and never even the reason why they lost, because my role in the team was just to cheer and to entertain. Seriously speaking, even if I look happy in the team, they are all just to disguise all my unhappiness. I enjoyed trngs is because I can see my frens. I know where my limit is. I know no matter how hard I trained, I will never exceed others in the team. I started the race later than others, the chances of me winning is very little or maybe impossible.
Netball, has been in my life for 5 years, I am letting go now. I am tired already. I am sorry JL, Mr Bok. I have let you down. You guys have seen me grown through the years and now I am giving up. You guys have gave me guidance and opportunities. I am sorry. I just want to do smth else, other than netball. Smth that will give me the sense of belonging. I am useless and I am really very sorry.
Bye.
I have been struggling very hard before making this decision.
I have decided to stop playing netball. This is really a tough decision. I love netball. I have been playing it for 5 years, but you guys have the eyes to see that I am not a good player. Never was and never will. JL is right, I will never be a good player. My size is already a big disadvantage. I will not achieve anything if I continue. JL asked me to concentrate on Umpiring, but it is not what I want. I want to play the game. I want to be part of the team when we win. I want to cry with the team when lose. Honestly,I never had the sense of belonging to the team, whether in Extremes or even Henderson. I was never the reason why they won and never even the reason why they lost, because my role in the team was just to cheer and to entertain. Seriously speaking, even if I look happy in the team, they are all just to disguise all my unhappiness. I enjoyed trngs is because I can see my frens. I know where my limit is. I know no matter how hard I trained, I will never exceed others in the team. I started the race later than others, the chances of me winning is very little or maybe impossible.
Netball, has been in my life for 5 years, I am letting go now. I am tired already. I am sorry JL, Mr Bok. I have let you down. You guys have seen me grown through the years and now I am giving up. You guys have gave me guidance and opportunities. I am sorry. I just want to do smth else, other than netball. Smth that will give me the sense of belonging. I am useless and I am really very sorry.
Bye.
