I've got my pride, I will not cry, but it's makin' me weak.

Exams till now were quite ok, well at least I think it is. I am now watching a drama series which is such a torture to watch, but I lyk the show eh. Keeps on tempting me to watch. They quarrel for the whole 40 plus mins. You really just want to skip to the last disc, at least you can just watch the 'happy' ending and finally see them not quarrelling. hahas. I know it is exam period now, but you know I need to chill from exams too. Pple, don't get angry, I know my limits.

Cherish.

I just read a post by someone I dun even know, but I feel so pain for her.

Maths paper 2 tomorrow, shld be better than chem, I guess. I feel so fking emotional. The world has changed. Pple are becoming too smart to survive in this world. They want more and more means no limits at all. They had smth but wants smth better. They had smth better but wants smth even better than better. Satisfaction shld never appear in the dictionary because it has never happened before or shld I say humans never make satisfaction happen. One day, the Earth will die. Humans are the murderer, but who will convict them? Who will make judgment for the Earth? Nobody.

So many desires.
So unable to achieve.

Chem was ok, I think. Nvm, I shld get prepared for other papers. I have much confidence for the remaining papers as compared to Chem.

Dear VV,
Pls do not stress yourself too much. Your acnes, pimples, rashes or whatever you call it, are popping out already. I believe you can do well for 'O' lvls, because I also can, you shld do even better.♥
Btw, JQ, don't erase the smile on your face for guys lyk them.

Bye.

I need answers to my questions.

I am tired, but I cannot fall asleep. I am filled with terror and hunger, all of a sudden. I am not very prepared for the paper later. No confidence. I wanna shit. DAMN!
I miss my friends.
Bye.

Smth is missing...
I don't know what it is.

I shld be revising but, I can't bring myself to do it. I procrastinate too much. Charification (nothing) just told me that they will be gng out later today. That nothing, always tempting me with stuffs. ARGH!! I am so tired. The days of sufferings are gng to be over, I strongly believe. Then I will play lyk a bitch. ARGH!! TEMPTATIONS!! BTW, fk that spammer.
Bye.

I am gng to start on my revision after this post. Chemistry is boring, but I know I have to work hard for it.

Bye.

Today's practical is lyk shit. Chemistry, suppose to test for oxygen then I fking tested for hydrogen. Then NVM lo. Guess wad happened? Hydrogen is also fking present, because for the first time in my life I test for hydrogen and I heard a 'pop' sound. I was damn happy la. Until the end of the paper, I was told that it is suppose to be test for OXYGEN and NOT HYDROGEN. GONE!! 4 marks!! AH!! Physics, acceleration due to gravity is suppose to be ard 10m/s². I got 8. smth. Crap!! Totally out la. Damn. Or maybe Newton is wrg to say that gravity is 10m/s². Then there will be the three laws of TingTing. Muhahaha. Jking la. I where got so smart right? KNNBCCB! I want to die le la. Chemistry is coming up next monday. Will I pass with flying colours? Mark my words, I WILL.

Bye.

I will work hard for everything that will lie in front of me.

I fking forgot abt my grandma in the previous post. AH MA, I ♥ YOU. She has been slogging her whole life and up till now, she is still unable to enjoy life. I will now, study very hard and find a job that pays well. I want her to enjoy life. My parents can wait la. hahas.

Tomorrow, I will be having my science practical. Wish me luck pple. Hope that it won't be too tough. Not only for this paper, but also for the other papers. I really really really want to score well. I do not expect all A's but well at least not too bad la. By then, hahas, JL will owe me a meal, a sumptuous meal. Everybody will be happy for me. I will also prove that even a retainee will score well. I want everyone to be proud of me and mark my words, I WILL.
Bye.

I was told there will be a prom night on 13 nov. Kinda rush, but acceptable. I seriously hope that the prom will not be organised by some fking noob shits. hahas. Leslie say that he won't be gng because he will be gone even before the prom. What is fun without him. It is lyk tea without tea leaves. Haix. NVM. I am not even sure whether I will be gng not. So, whatever la. Now, my focus shld be my 'O' levels.
Bye.

This is just a begining.

I had a wonderful dream last night. I swear, it was very incredible. I dreamt of the PCD. OMG la, I even dreamt that i took a picture with them. AH!! How I wish that it was not just a dream, but, Haix. Well, at least I dreamt of them, I saw them in my dreams! I guess that is just enough, for now. I swear that once I start to earn money I will fking go to Hollywood, fking look for them and tell them how hot they are and lots of things!! AH!!

I did 2 paper 1 today. Nth much but at least there is an effort. JQ is right, I shld be feeling kan chiong abt it, but I am not. In fact, I feel very confident. I dunno why, I feel so relax, no sense of urgency. Is it right to feel lyk that?

I just screamed at my brother for coming home late. He always does that, and I will always scream. He always promises to come home early next time, but everytime he just cont'd to repeat it agn. I just want him to come home early and stay at home instead of hanging ard with those pple that who may just lead him astray. However, it turns out to be my fault for not being an understanding sister that he wants to have fun. Fun? Even if your studies is at cost. He dun understand that, my mum dun understand. WTF. I am not at fault. I AM NOT!
Bye.

After you step through that door,
do not turn back no matter what happens.

I have smth to confess today. I am in LOVE...

I ♥ : mama, papa, didi, meimei, JL, bok-ge, EXTREMES, 4e2, VV, reagina, jessica, fransiska, leslie, sumin, aravin, dylan, felicia, marcus, derek, sheryl, yun sum, celine, badi, duong, sinead, huiru, peiqi, fredrick, belinda, fangfan, tiffany, vanessa, charification, angel, chanjiaqi, tanestherchristabel, JS, wenqi, germaine, sarah, ML, huixuan. Still got alot la, cannot rmbr. Oh ya, still got nicole, jessica, melody, kimberly, ashley. hahas. That is all( I guess).

I thank : goh yau tai, robin low, rina lio, alan cheng, gauis lee, melissa quah, shirley chua, joanna tan, sek choon ling, png yam hoon, ng ah hoon, ng niann yeu, chua hai lee and most importantly, yeo chin nam. Without her, HSS would have failed. Now she is leaving, where will HSS be next? hahas. Also not my problem, I am leaving. hahas. Farewell my fellow principal. Best wishes to the new principal.

May I pass with flying colours, best wishes for me for my 'O' levels.
Bye.

I am a lucky girl,
because I am loved by so many.

I am effing full. I just had a slice of cake. Today(13 october ) is my Mama's b'dae. The cake was hers. We somehow gave her a surprise:
She was bathing, then I switched off the bathroom's light. She shouted in hokkien," every time also lyk that,"which obviously shows that I do it quite often. In heart of sympathy, I switched on the lights for her, if not she will be wearing her underwear outside? Or even use the shampoo to wash her body. hahas. After a long tedious bath, she came out and saw me with the cake. She was touched to tears and hugged me so hard that I could feel her breasts squeezing mine. hahas. And wad's more, I am just jking. Funny huh? She actually just came out and stared at the cake (obviously she was hungry for the cake). We sang, she made a wish, blew off the candle( one big candle), cut the cake, and we ate. She and my dad was lyk, "I didn't know you had a cake for me," "Oh you didn't know?" " Lucky for you all that I did not open the fridge," and bla bla bla... So my parents la, fake! hahas. Whatever.

Today, will also be the last day of school( I hope), and last day means really last. I will not step into HSS for the rest of my life for lessons, forever never. I am suppose to be happy abt it. I will not see the teachers that I detest or having the teachers chasing me ard the sch for hmwks and stuffs lyk that. The problem now is, I hate to leave HSS. In fact, I am already missing my time in there. The jks that the teachers crack( although they are seriously not funny), the frens that I met there, those fond memories, I really do love it in HSS. Even though everyday I curse and swear HSS but the fact is, HSS has already become a place for my everyday routine. I shit there, I pee there, I sleep there, I eat there, I talk there, I do so many things there. Can you imagine you have to change a place to shit after you have been shitting in one place for so many years? It is tough. Haix. I know it is, but I have to move on to the next phase of my life. Continue on with my life and the fond memorises in HSS will always be kept in my heart, pocket, memory card... Aiya, any place with free space la. Last but not least, I ♥ 4E2 and VV la.
Bye.

I came across a letter ytd. Inside, was a card, an apology card. It was suppose to be sent out last year? Ya. Ard mid june. I opened the card and lots of thoughts ran through my mind. So, the card was obviously written by me and the purpose was to apologise. Why? Because during that period of time, my clique and I, we had some conflicts. We were at the verge of losing our friendship. The card was written, in hope to salvage everything. However, for some reasons, the card was not sent out and that cost our friendship. In fact, even if i did send the card, we are still hopeless. Not because we dislike each other, but the pace of our lives had changed. They prefer to explore more fun and get to know more pple instead of sticking on with one grp of pple only. This may not be the fact but this is wad I think. I may be wrg. Whereas, for me, I am satisfied with all my friends and not willing to know more pple.

Never mind, it has all passed already. I think I am leading a better life now. I love all my frens a lot. I am satisfied already.

Bye.

If I never existed, will life be different for my friends and families?

School was ok. Guess wad? I escaped frm scoldings today. Well, not actually escaped, but my teacher had no time to go through the hmwks. So, I wasn't discovered that I did not COMPLETE my work (did not complete means got do but never finish). hahas. There is this guy teacher who came in for our English class. I am not sure whether is he an English teacher, but I am sure he is weird. He has that looks that says " wanna be gangster? Come look for me", can imagine? hahas. He damn scary. When our teacher who is giving the lecture asked us a question, which we, as Hendersonians obviously could answer it, he fking shouted," you guys are so gifted", or smth lyk that. I am not sure( although he was just standing next to me at that point of time). I was so fed up, because the question she asked was similar to," is A for apple?" Is that gifted? Damn. I guess he didn't know that we will be sitting for 'O' lvls next week, thats why he is so fking astonished by the fact that we know "A is for apple". If he knows that we can write compo, I bet he will be so damn fking surprise and stare at us in disbelief. hahas. I can totally imagine that. Thats not it. He did even more funny stuffs than this. My fren and I was doing smth else other then English and he saw. Know wad he did? He fking put his head near my fren and stared directly into her eyes, and the near i mean is not frm Queenstown to Redhill, is lyk 5cm away? SO CLOSE LA. I got the shock of my life. He literally stared, lyk how he would if he knows we know how to write compo. hahas. After he stared, he walked away. The next time he walked pass, he started answering for questions we never asked.-_-". I really had enough scare for the day. Until now, his actions are still haunting me. I guess, I will have this phobia in me forever. Haix.
Bye.

If the world ever ends, I will die with no regrets.
I had lived my life well.

I am having English tomorrow. Which means, I am going to DIE. KNNBCCB. I fking hate English. The teachers fking nag with constant acceleration. They fking start nagging a lil by a lil and then fking scream with hell lots of big reasoning in it. GET A LIFE!! Have you ever wondered no matter how much sense you make or how loud you can get, NOBODY LISTENS MEANS NOBODY LISTENS. EVEN IF YOU FKING SCREAM YOUR LUNGS OUT, ALL WE CAN SEE ARE YOUR LUNGS AND NOT REMEMBERING WHY ARE YOUR LUNGS OUT AT THE FIRST PLACE. Seriously, I think our actions had already tell it all. Sadly, they just refuse to accept the fact. Haix. May GOD bless them. No doubt that they are nice teachers, but sometimes, they just a lil too overboard.

I was suppose to catch a movie wit Les and Jess but ya, the movie ran away, so we were unable to catch it. hahas. Just kidding. Les just called it off and here I am blogging craps. I think blogging is kinda fun. Bye.

Nth much happened today. Just a repeat of my daily routine of my boring life. I had enough! I want things to happen. Maybe witness a car accident while crossing the road, or maybe help catch a snatch thief. hahas. I bet Mrs Yeo will be very happy if i manage to help catch a snatch thief.

Lets talk abt smth. Hmmm.... I seriously think the world is coming to an end. Whenever I switch on my TV, all tragic news( even the dramas are tragic). The stock market falling, US pump how much, Europe pump how much, in the end, bank still collapse. Haix. Anyone wonder how important are banks to us? Bank is a place where our money grows into more money, if we had our savings at home, will grow la, grow mould.-_-". hahas.Imagine, the world is filled with beggars. Everywhere you go, pple begging you for money. How pathetic will that be? It seems lyk there is nth we can do abt it but to wait for the arrival of the end. Maybe we have not been nice and now, it is pay back time. BEWARE!!
Bye.

what to do when u face failure?
point middle finger and ask it to fk off.

Expected, my english hmwk is still not done. Guess wad, i still have more to do. I am gng to die. Murdered by the naggings of my teachers. They are gng to flood me with their salivas. Hope that i can find the shore within or maybe someone throw me the float.

Today is the "BORED TO DEATH" day. Almost killed, but survived, i managed to escape frm death.. Three cheers!! hahas.BTW, I was chased out of class, because i passed a pad wrapped with foolscape to VV. My fault la?! Leslie pass to Dylan never kana, I pass kana. Did I mention i was laughing? Ok, I laughed, she heard, she stared and "TingTing, GET OUT NOW", was wad she said next. Haiya. Forget it la. Next time, I will just pass the pad without laughing.
Bye.

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